trying something new

I am trying to figure out how to add pics without taking away to much of my space. Bare with me.

keiffer creek 09

keiffer creek 09

new pool pics

new pool 6-09

I have a ton of new pics to add and some ones of bubba that are just too cute. I am trying to figure some thing out. Maybe flickr. I have been using picasa but it's almost full too and theirs not that much on there yet either.

Josie's birthday

Josie's 9th birthday

My Josie girl turned 9 last week. I hate that they years are going by so fast. She was 4 and a half when the twins were born and Abi was 7. They are both getting so big. SHe still sucks her thumb though. :) She will be getting her bigger birthday in a few weeks. She has decided on a Luau. This is where she will invite her friends and family. We still have a lot of planning to do for it. We had to put it off because of father's day, forth of july and then deal with daddy's schedule too. It's not too far off though.

camera broke

I am very bummed out to say that while I was outside with the kids the other day, taking pictures of them and Daddy as he was setting up the new pool in the yard, I dropped the camera. David has a rechargeble he is going to let me use that he uses for fire scenes. It is going to be a while before I can replace the broken one. Anyway, I do have the pics that I took right before i dropped the camera. I will post them tomorrow. This is a bummer.

new link

So the new link worked great for me. I hope it works well for everyone else. :) Here's another one.

Josie bridging

Josie's bridging to Girlscouts 6-09

Josie bridged this week from Brownie to girlscout. Here she is still sporting her brownie vest. but thankfully they have decided to go to the sash because I still have Abi's sash from when she bridged. I am at 70% of used space already for this blog. Not sure what will happen once I have reached 100%. I guess I will have to start a new blog then. If that ever happens I will definitely make a post here to let you all know of the changes but for now no changes. :) I will bwe posting these links to my picasa web album for as long as it works. Then I might end up having to use flickr.

vaction happyness!!!!!!!!!!!!

words to live by...

Get in the Word, take hold of the promise to bring growth and change in our lives. Rick Shelton

Dependence must be on God, and not on us. God gives us the authority to control our body, mind, and tongue, but only so He can have free course to work in our lives. Rick Shelton

If we could see the way things were going to turn out in the end, we would not struggle so much with what we're going through. Yet, why does God not allow us to see all the ultimate good that is going to come out of things that we are going through presently? It is because God is requireing us to walk by faith. We are creatures of faith, and faith pleases God. Rick Shelton

God is not going to let you down. He is carrying you through to the end. Rick Shelton

We ask: Who am I ? Why am I here? Where am I going?All of these hinge on who am I in Christ. My life becomes effective by acknowledging who Christ is in me! Rick Shelton

Whatever it is that you're supposed to do in life - whatever challenges you are facing, whatever you've been called to handle today- you are enough and you have enough. God will use whatever you've already got. Don't ever say I can't, or I'm not going to make it. Those thoughts are contradicting to the very fact that God is the One who has given you purpose and plans for your life and, placed you where you are! Rick Shelton
Wow, i really needed this one. I am enough. That's a hard one to keep saying to yourself.

God has given you everything you need. Confess His word and not your doubts, not your unbelief. Say, 'Yes, I can because God has made me. And God is the One who has put me here!' You see, God is a providential God. This means He goes ahead of you and provides ahead of time what you're going to need when you get there, because He's the One who has designed for you to go there. Rick Shelton


I am really struggling right now and needed to here these words. Sometimes I wonder if the choices we make for our family are self motivated or God's plan for us. I can only just keep praying that the decissions we make are the right ones. I also know that if they were what God wanted me to do, they wouldn't stress me out so much. I need to have more trust and faith in my decisions and in God and his plan for us.

can't sleep

I should have taken that Melatonin at 8pm instead of waiting until I was laying in bed and couldn't fall asleep. Chloe must be suffering from it too because she is sitting here whimpering at me for what ever reason I don't know. Bubba is sawin logs in the bed with his daddy and daddy is doing the same. David falls a sleep before his head even hits the pillow. I started taking meds again so i don't sleep as well. The Melatonins help if you take them before you actually need them. Anyway, this is going to be a busy week and everything is making me crazy. Not the kids actually, for the first time. Bubba has had 2 really good nights and by the way tonight has started off, i think he is doing better. It's this damn house stuff and moving and whether or not to move to a different school dist. It all is just to much to burden and it is making me crazy. I was doing laundry tonight and I can't see what I am even putting in the wash through my teary face. I just cry at everything. Which is why i started on thye meds again. Then my wonderfull father says on the phone the other night, "if you had it to do all over again, would you have still had five kids?" Oh, no Dad, your right. I should have only stopped at two. Which ones should I do without? WTF. What kind of a question is that!!!!! that's like my mom saying, abi would have been a great only child. I hate these kind of comments. then there's billy making me crazy over the kids in the yard screwing up his freakin garden. if it's not the damn dog's its the kids. Diggin wholes in the yard or killin the grass. Please GOD!!!!! make him stop. I only want to move to get the hell away from him!!!!! And moving away from the rest of them probably wouldn't be so bad either. I still have that house in Millstadt that is for sale and it is just far enough. it's just not fair that i have to make a house payment because billy is making my life a living hell. I can't let my kids play in their own yard because of Uncle billy and what he might say or do if one of them screws something up. So i guess everyone is supposed to stay loked up in the house or if we want to play outside, we need to go to the park so we dont' kill his grass. And he keeps reminding me of how much he spent on fertalizer a few weeks ago. Might i remind him how much the home owners insurance is every month or the trash bill is? No I don't because I just don't do that. I don't throw in his face that I pay all of the damn house bills that he should be paying half of with me but I don't ask him for a freakn penny. He has payed me a few times in the last 9 months but it has never been consistant or after he gives me the check, he will call and say, don't cash that yet. Or better yet, it bounces and then he blames it on me because I took it to the bank to fast or not fast enough. He is killing me. I am ready to walk away from this house and never look back. It's not right for David though. This is HIS dad's house, not mine. His dad has been gone now 9 months this May. Ten months on the 15th of June. I always thought things would lighten up around here after Dad passed. He was always so hard on me too. I am trying to let go but it is just so hard when you have to deal with it on a daily basis. It is there reminding me everytime i let the dogs or the kids into the yard. This house isn't only Billy's. Dad left this house to David too. We need to just fix up this side and rent it out and MOVE. David is scared and so am I but it is so passed time. I just pray for peace and patience. More patience God. And an answere. What is the right thing? The house in oakville? The house in Millstadt? or just keep staying here? Well, off to try to get some sleep. I have kids in the morning that expect entertainment. Any my two new summer jobs. :) Smile on my face and song in my heart. The days still go on, even if you are not ready for them yet. Hope bubba will let me snuggle him. I need a snuggle right now.